Tuesday, 12 July 2011

Settling Down is so unsettling!

" You should not have any problem, You are settled in life" .. This was the comment by one of my friends when we were having the usual discussion about life...

Made me ponder... Am I settled?

What is the settled feeling I wonder!... Does having furniture in your home, being married or having children qualify you to the settled category? Does it mean once you have all this you are settled for life? Then why this unsettled feeling all the time!...

I have been married for 4 years now, have a full time job, a wonderful child.. but yet sometimes I feel, when will I settle down...
I am like a child trapped in an adult body.
Talk to my parents about the feeling, I get to hear what more do you want?? you must feel lucky you have everything in life so early...
Talk to my lifepartner, He'll say, I have tried my level best to give you all the facilities, and keep you happy.. You have everything that a human being desires and all the damn things required to make your life easier and yet you complain!...
Makes me confused.. Am I expecting too much out of life?
I thought settling down meant  you have a definite goal in your life, a road which you can traverse in order to reach your own goals, a routine which makes you feel secured in life...
I dont feel that yet in life... I am as lost as a trekker who might have lost his way in the jungle.. I am yet to know what I want from my life, Let alone set my goals and feel secured...

Am I wrong?  Am I expecting too much.. is a question I ask myself.. I am yet to get an answer.. Can anybody help me find it!...
Nicky!

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