Tuesday, 31 August 2010

Weighty Issues

I happened to read a book on weightloss. Now, This is one goal I have never been able to achieve no matter how hard I try...  Funny, I should say How hard I try :)..

Honestly, I dont think I have that spark in me to go through a diet plan completely. I have always been on a diet all my life.. When I was about 5,( that is the longest memory of myself that I have) I was always regarded as a chubby baby, my mom used to flaunt me for being so healthy, chubby and cute(??).. My mum was always swarmed with questions like what she gives me to eat? How does she manage to make me eat? etc.. Well, Honestly, I dont think my mum had any problem making me eat anytime in her life!( coupled with the fact that I love eating). When I grew up, i.e I went into my teen years, the same chubbiness was regarded as fat. Again, My mum was swarmed with questions like why she is not controlling my diet? Doesnt she think I am fat? Etc..

Reader, Did you notice the change in the type of questions... Well, anyways, that is not the topic of discussion. Going on from there, My mum suddenly realised I eat too much and asked me to refrain from eating.( She still tells me not to eat by the way). Today, I am about twice my age since my earliest teen age now but I am still clueless about how to refrain from eating.

Somehow, I cannot stop myself from eating what I want. I feel so hungry that I feel, I will die! is this normal? As I grew up, I got aware that I was never meant to be a model or a heart throb of my college, I settled down in my jeans and a loose tshirt inorder to hide my flab. What did I lose? My self Confidence.
I started hating socialising, going to parties became a hazard to me. I hated even talking to people because, I was normally asked Why dont I lose some weight? and used to get about a 100 suggestions to lose weight.

I was just analyzing my situation when I happen to read this book on weight loss. All my life, people have made fun of how I look( even now they do), I have been suggested a million ways to lose weight ( even my Gym instructor for that matter) and been regarded as fat!..

Honestly, I am fitter than most of the slim people around me. I have an immense stamina, can do my work on my own, Can actually do more than most of the average individuals at my age. But still, Where ever I go, Which ever book I read, I feel Flattened!.. My spirits are lost!... I donno what to do!

On an average day, My diet includes,

Morning Snack:
1 Fruit
Breakfast
Tea/Upma/Poha/Idli
Mid Morning
Milk
Lunch
Subzi/Roti/Rice/Dal
Evening Snack
Idli/Dosa/Poha/Upma/Sandwich/Milk
Dinner
Subzi/Roti/Rice/Dal

I walk almost an hour daily/ do my gymming regularly. Am I missing something? Is this not the ideal diet suggested by every dietician in this world? Then why am I not losing weight?

Even when I go to buy clothes, I am branded with a size which is unvailable in most of the brands.. All I have to make do is with the most unfashionable clothes on this earth!.. I mean come on, What has size got to do with fashion?
I am really frustrated with life, not because I am fat ( although, I prefer to be called healthy) but because of all these issues I face. I mean, I dont understand what is the fun in putting down a person's spirits just because the person is XL sized?

I really hope someday, I would be able to prove to these people that external looks dont really matter. What matters is the inner self!..

Wednesday, 25 August 2010

Male Chauvinism

Well, Not a nice topic for a blog eh!.. But what do I do? Early this morning, I logged in to facebook as usual.. There I saw the post " A Man is so restive to get married, but after marriage he never rests"...

I am really annoyed and awed at the same time.. This is one topic which has been touched upon by every tom dick n Harry on earth, but yet, my blood boils when I see such messages..

I want to throw a challenge to every man in India. Let them leave the cosiness of their homes where they were born, Leave their friends behind, their life behind and start living with their wives..

Anyone upto the challenge? I dont think so. It is we, Women who have to leave our parents, our pets, our friends, our job at times and even our names most of the time to come and live in a house of strangers.

Don't we learn to start loving these strangers? Make an effort to call that home ours and settle in so called marriage? Yet, it is men who compromise their lives in Marriage...Men whose life changes drastically after marriage... What an irony!..

All through my life, I have come across many illustrations on a wife.. Wife is depicted in cartoons as that vindictive woman who is greedy, selfish and dominating, U can always see a woman with a rolling pin in her hand and beating the hell out of her poor frail husband... Have we ever come across a cartoon which shows the other way around? I dont think so!

I know of a woman, who earns at par with her husband, has her own identity, a booming career and an exciting life.. But, yes, there is always a but!.. This woman doesnot have independence!.. Now, I know you must be feeling, I am contradicting myself in the same sentence.. Let me give you a reason, my reader.. This woman is married for an year, she is given "Pocket money" by her husband who keeps her debit card to himself. According to him, she is not capable of managing her finances on her own, Doesnot know how to dress up, Doesnot have the social etiquettes! Now thats some thing, isnt it?

Let me tell all the men in this world, A woman of average intelligence knows how to deal with her life, Thank you very much! We are not weak, We are as educated as you are, have a job like you do.. Then why do you think we are not capable of managing ourselves? I mean, if a company has hired us, they must be knowing we r capable right?

Well, Another thing is about the household chores. I am really awed when my husband tells me it is my duty to give him food when he gets back home everyday!.. I mean, Why is it "my duty"?

In the olden days, it was only the men who were working . They were bringing in the money to manage the house, Hence, it came upto women to do the household chores like laundry, cooking, cleaning etc. It was just a part of the commitment that I will take up half your burden because I am married to you.

Now, Lets take the current scenario, I am working full time, almost at the same level as my husband, earning almost equally, Still why is it expected that even though I am dead tired at the end of the day, I should be serving a sumptous meal, doing the laundry, tidying the house? well, Yes, My husband does help me at times.. but hold on, why is he helping me? Is it not his responsibility too?

I too am tired at the end of the day after a hard days work, why am I not entitled for rest? My husband comes home and takes his position on the couch infront of the television while I, rush to the kitchen to fix some dinner, tidy all the mess he has left behind, do the laundry. And Yet, Most of the time, it is him that is trying to cope up with marriage!...

When my son was born, it was an unsaid rule that It was going to be me who gets up in the middle of the night to change his dirty nappy, me who will take my days off when he is sick, me who will keep up with his immunization schedule, me who will deal with all his tantrums and all his father would do is cuddle him, play with him and the moment he cries or dirties his nappy, he is turned to his mother!

Why all the unsaid rules are for women? Even though we do so much for our families, at the end of the say we cant even expect an appreciation!... Why what we do is so thankless? I have never seen a husband appreciate his wife for what she has done!...

We Women, Love our role as a wife, yet, we are always blamed to be the cause of misery for our husbands!..
Recently, My husband saved my mobile number under the name Wife.. I am still clueless as to why his friend insisted it to be changed to Knife...

I am sure, one day if every one of us Women refuse to do your job for you, dont wash your dirty laundry, Dont cook for you or refuse to take care of your children, May be then you would understand what being a Woman Means!...

I wish, one day.. That day arrives when Man is thankful that he has a WOMAN in his life!..

Nicky!

Monday, 23 August 2010

23/08/2010 - Diet Day 1

Dear Sweetu,
I am on a diet... Now, whenever somebody who knows me listens to these words from my mouth, they burst out laughing.. yes, I for one, Cant diet.. I just love food!...
Recently, I happen to read one of the books which have been in demand from a long time "Dont Lose your mind, Lose your weight - Rujuta Diwekar"... Believe me, It was such a refresher for me... I realised All this while , I was actually not dieting but punishing my body...
So Here I am , From today, I will eat my fav food, Live the life the way I want to.. will not give up Pizza's Burgers or Pasta, and I know I will lose weight...

Confused!, I can understand.. I too was when I read the Foreword of the book.. But Now, I am confident that this time it is going to work...
Wish me luck,
Nikki