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Scary Feeling - Being Lonely!

Honestly, I am surrounded by loads of people all the time.. My mum who checks on me every two hours over the phone. My life partner whHEo apparently slogs day in and day out to make me get all the comforts of life.. my son with his antics.. my Brother and all his mood swings.. Lots of colleagues who say I am a nice person to be around.. Yet, I am alone.. "May be you are mentally disturbed and hence you get this feeling" There is no need for you to be lonely..." this was the reaction when I happened to speak about my loneliness... Am I? I seem to ask myself.. I am just a normal individual who asks for nothing but undivided attention when I am around atleast for sometime!.. Yes, My mum calls me every two hours.. But mostly she is preoccupied with what she needs to cook for breakfast/lunch/dinner.. Or she is worried about how to get the house cleaned.. or she is busy with her meetings and get togethers.. No, I am not complaining.. All I ask from her is 10 mins of he

Settling Down is so unsettling!

" You should not have any problem, You are settled in life" .. This was the comment by one of my friends when we were having the usual discussion about life... Made me ponder... Am I settled? What is the settled feeling I wonder!... Does having furniture in your home, being married or having children qualify you to the settled category? Does it mean once you have all this you are settled for life? Then why this unsettled feeling all the time!... I have been married for 4 years now, have a full time job, a wonderful child.. but yet sometimes I feel, when will I settle down... I am like a child trapped in an adult body. Talk to my parents about the feeling, I get to hear what more do you want?? you must feel lucky you have everything in life so early... Talk to my lifepartner, He'll say, I have tried my level best to give you all the facilities, and keep you happy.. You have everything that a human being desires and all the damn things required to make your life ea

The task of Home making!

I am a forced full time house wife from 10 days now. Although my son is perfectly active and is upto his usual antics, Since he has chicken pox, he cant be sent to school!.... Which leaves me little choice... These 10 days have been the most illuminating days of my life... First, I realized what I am missing in my life..  (my Son's antics, growing up). Second and the most important thing, It is not easy to be a house wife!... When my son got diagonised with Chicken pox, My first reaction was sadness, I was sad that my son had to go through the whole thing and moreover, I had to take a leave of absence  But deep down inside, I was welcoming the break. I thought, Now, I could relax, watch TV whenever I want and  catch upon my favorite shows, have a good afternoon siesta, Cook my favorite food, read my favorite books, do my favorite activities...  Cos, I always used to think that a house wife is the luckiest human being on earth, since, she didnot  bother about earning money nor

The tale of an Happy marriage!

Well, I dont want to be redundant when I write, But this is one topic which intrigues me all the time!.. Happy Marriage!.. What is a happy marriage? When can we consider people to be happily married? How to we deem a marriage successful/unsuccessful? These are some of the questions that I keep pondering over. Let me tell you my reader, I am married for 3 years now. My marriage is successful and happy when I speak to some of my friends who have had troubled marriages. The same is true according to my parents, relatives etc. The same is true for me too if I compare it with some of the contemporaries that I have seen. But still, these questions loom over my head. Well, I have been always told to be writing something about marriage, the inside stories of marriage and share my experiences. Here are some of them. The main reason why I ponder whether my marriage is happy or not is that in the last 3 years, it has been a herculean task to have a normal conversation with my partner. Tha

A Task called Parenting!

Hi My readers, It is a while since I have blogged.. The obvious reason is the topic of this one :).. I have missed my "My Time" during which I used to blog, update my FB status, Check my mails, write my diary and so on... Ok, Let me clarify one thing here. I am a working mother to a spritely little toddler who has taken upon himself to ensure his Mum never sits at one place and is constantly on her toes.. I have not known a moment of peace after he has started staying with us (P.S. My sonny was with my mum during his second year and recently started staying with us). He has his unique way of ensuring his mum never has a moment of peace. On a normal weekday, I struggle to wake him up, get him ready to school and reach office without being late, but on weekends, the time which I look forward to catching up on some sleep, My sonny boy is up as early as 6 AM and starts demanding breakfast! I leave him in a creche during the day and as soon as I pick him up in the evening,